Friday, April 1, 2011

Matthew 7:12

Matthew 7:12 (New International Version, ©2011)

12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Sometimes we ought to help a friend in need cos if we were in that position, we would want them to help us as well. Likewise, we would not do something to a friend which we wouldn't want them doing to us.

The tongue is mightier than the sword, hence the words we say to others, we must be sure, we won't want to be said to us. I'm actually not hurt by words that people say to me that are degrading or insulting or just plain taking a 'dig' at me, but if they didn't want the exact same words thrown back at them, they should think twice before saying such things. So much for practising what you preach.

Not hungry..ciaoz


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Sick...

If there's one thing that will happen repetitively throughout our lives, it will be that we WILL get sick. If its not today, somewhere within the nxt year, we're bound to fall ill. Our bodies are not perfect therefore, there will bound to be some problem when some bacteria infects us.
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Funny thing is, there is always advice of what to do to get better. But I dunno about others, but I never follow it. Then I'll be left in a horrible state feeling like shit and yet feel too lazy to move.
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I'm writing down a checklist to follow next time I fall sick:
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1. Drink plenty of water. Most of the time when I'm ill, water tastes so bad...I cant understand why, water has a bad aftertaste. And this only happens when I'm sick! I end up drinking less cos I cant bring myself to drink water.
2. Force yourself to eat. Dire consequences will arise if I don't eat. Most of the time I'm so sick I just don wanna get out of bed to go eat. I thought of eating dinner at 8pm...ended up eating half a burger at 12.30. So eat even if you feel like puking..just eat.
3. Why just eat? Most of the time when I don't eat, acid build up in my stomach. Then I feel like puking, then I can't lay down, then I feel my stomach burning.
4. Then when u take a dump in the toilet, what basically comes out is Acid. Doesnt feel too good either.
5. Lots of Acid builds to lots of gas. I've released gas more times today then in the past month!
6. Dont refrain from taking panadol early. Any discomfort either by muscle ache, headache or fever, JUST TAKE THE PANADOL! I have no idea why it took me 18 hrs after I've fallen sick to take my first panadol pill. After half an hr, I could lie on the bed pain-free...and could sleep continuosly for at least 4 hours..that's until the panadol effect wears off...
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not hungry, cos I forced myself to down some food, till I feel like puking!...

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Gutted

When I came back to Malaysia 6 months ago, I had a busy schedule. Everyone wanted to meet up with me cause we should catch up. Even my parents had to ask me for free time a week in advance.
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Today is the 2nd weekend night in a row that I'm about to have dinner alone. I do not know if people are really that busy with Chinese New Year, or that 6 months ago they've seen me hence there is really no need to meet up with Jonathan Chua since he comes back ever so often. Friends that I considered close to me have either met me just once, or not at all. I think I have been ffk-ed at least 5 times these past 2 weeks.
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Contemplating not returning to Malaysia for a while. Other than a rare few and my parents, nobody seems happy that I'm back. I make the effort in planning outings while others just seem to have the attitude of, if he asks then we go out, otherwise then let it be la..
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hungry, but gonna sulk in silence...I've never felt so emo returning to my home country...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Manhood

You know I finally discovered something today. I finally realise the reason behind the age old symptom of why men want to get married as late as possible while women want to get married as early as possible. Before I go on, I understand that some people may or may not agree about what I'm about to write, some will feel general concern while some will just go "ha? now only u realise ar?" But I really want to just express myself. Anyone who condemns me for this, I shall not respond.
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Have u ever seen a t shirt with a picture that says 'game over' with the groom sad while the bride is smiling? If u havent, here it is:

I've seen men at 33 still refusing to get married while some at 26 are married already? Is it just preference?
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The 'subject' of men will be me. I love freedom. Thats it, through and through. I love the thought of having to not eat at normal times. I love to eat whatever I want wherever I want and I love to eat only when I'm hungry, even if it is 3am. That's just my nature. I love to go out and do whatever I want. Of course I'm saying all these within the confinements of God's law, that I do not want to break. You see before marriage, I can always say 'I'. I this and I that. But when it comes to being married, it is never I. A man has to change his thinking to 'we'. Men responsible enough to take a vow before God must put his family first. Plan for the family, benefit the family, and do everything with priority for the family. That feeling of being bogged down, that I am accountable to someone else, just feels very limiting. I don't know why it happens but it just does. I know its plain and simple, I'm selfish. I'm just selfish. I want to not plan ahead and go with the flow, not taking into consideration what my gf has planned for me. Is it my obligation to spend most of my time with her? Is it considered a default that any free time you have, is go be with your gf unless stated otherwise? It doesnt mean I love my gf any less or I'm not committed to her, its just that men like me prefer quality time over quantity time.
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Women on the other hand, search for security. They want to get it done so that they know their future is secure. And it is within their nature that once they get a bf, the bf is prioritised and they expect men to do the same. They feel that once the bf want to do something else other than spend time with her, it means the spark is dropping or they are drifting away. How can it be that men and women don't have the same understanding of what spending time together is? I saying this outright, a gf is not obligated to serve her bf. Its done out of love bcos she wants to and when the men dont reciprocate, they feel its unfair or it shouldnt be like that.
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I remember very clearly I negotiated with my mum after my SPM exams that I would get 72 hours free to do anything I want and that she will have no say in whatever I do. Anything, even if it means going off to Thailand or Singapore but coming back b4 the 72 hr ends. What drove me to ask her for that time? Because growing up, I always had to be accountable to my parents. They controlled me(for good reason) and made sure that I asked permission before going anywhere out of the ordinary. Once SPM was over, I felt relieved, I felt that I had the love of parents but wasnt under their control. I played and played and even decided I shouldnt waste time sleeping. However, I got too tired and eventually crashed. When I arrived in Australia, I had that same feeling again. The only thing that was gonna stop me from doing anything I want was that I had to attend classes. Other than that, I was a free man.
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Is it wrong for me to feel this way? Now that I have a gf, do I need to ask her what her plans are b4 making mine? Does it show lack of commitment if I decide to do something for myself and don't even bother asking her? Don't get me wrong, my gf gives me so much freedom but I still feel that, I have to tell her what I'm going to do or where I'm going. Am I under any morale conduct that bf have to be accountable to gf? Does this show that men are all pigs for being so selfish?
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Maybe we men are just in self denial. The moment our life gets routined, the moment we have to 'report' to someone else, that's it - You're now a grown men and you cant run from your responsibilities. The moment you get married, your responsibility changes from being a bf to a husband and a father. Personally I think theres a significant difference in being ready to be a bf and being ready to be a husband. I'm ready to be in a relationship, but I'm not ready to be in a married one. Thats just the immaturity of younger men. The moment a boy is ready to think of 'we', thats when the boy is ready to pop the question. I wonder when will I ever get that maturity in thinking. I'm so desperate for being free but yet still want to attention and love of my gf. I want to be me 1st then think of gf, while my gf prioritises me more than I do for her. Its selfish but thats just the way it is. There is no right or wrong in this matter, just tolerance and working out a balance.
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not hungry...ciaoz

Monday, January 3, 2011

New Year 2011

Ok, so after a year long break from blogging, I finally think its time to start again.
The reason I started this blog was for me to keep track of my life here in Aussie. However, due to business and lazyness, I've stopped...for a really long time..
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That aside, lets start things afresh. I am now a PR here in Melbourne, jobless(in accounting) and pretty much working my butt off to live. I realise that setting goals for the year has not been very productive. reason? I dunno le, somehow people seem to work towards their goals because they feel that sense of achievement or to push themselves to be a better person. I on the other hand, really don't feel the need to reach those goals I set. There is just no motivation, no passion to reaching those goals. So lets take a look at review for goals set for 2010.

i) Graduate by June and get a good job - part 1 yeah!, part 2 - $^%$%^&%$ frus frus and super frus...

ii) Read the New Testament completely (its about time I get this done) - oops...this is becoming a major concern...perhaps I should aim smaller this year.

iii) Be a less 'wood' bf. Although this wouldnt be prioritise as I still love watching Aster's reaction when she says I'm not expressive enough. - errr...cant really measure myself in this department. feedback anyone??

iv) End the year with a +5000 balance (this runs closely to goal (i)) - wow this was extremely way off...however I am satisfied with a positive balance considering I can hardly save with such significant outflows every month...wat do i do with my money?? hmmmmm.....

v) Enter JG - acheived!
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Maybe 2010 wasnt such a bad year after all. I shall contemplate on what goals to set for this year...
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not hungry at all...ciaoz

Thursday, June 3, 2010

wow 6 month break

This blog took a leave of absense from me for 6 months. It handed me a request by email to take a break....but now, its returned from holiday ready to work for me...
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Don't worry ppl!, update coming soon!

Friday, January 1, 2010

Girls gone missing

For my first post of year 2010:
Girls gone missing!!!

There has been a sudden outflux of my girl(friends) at the moment.
Aster - went back home to Singapore, and will be going KoreaJapan soon
Mel - gone back to Msia for good
Pei Xian - oso gone back to Msia (hopefully not for good :D)

well at least SuWen is coming so got another girl to torture besides Aster :D

I forsee next years lunch break at uni, saigoning only with Jun Wey, or all alone :(
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I've decided to make proper goals for 2010:
i) Graduate by June and get a good job
ii) Read the New Testament completely (its about time I get this done)
iii) Be a less 'wood' bf. Although this wouldnt be prioritise as I still love watching Aster's reaction when she says I'm not expressive enough.
iv) End the year with a +5000 balance (this runs closely to goal (i))
v) Enter JG
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very hungry..ciaoz